tired and sick

10:35 AM 6/23/2006
i just want to get out from here, hope that i will get the job after i attend the interview last Monday..i am no longer needed in this company.. i can feel it. and the feling becoming stronger and stronger. i came to the office quite late today, 1 or 2 minutes late. dont have any feeling to start a new day.

they are talking to each of them, they are planning among them, they have their own agenda that only they know what.. i guess jamee is correct, we just do not know which are friends, which are foe. they know something which i dont....

see...everbody is hiding something..even it is to do with any project.. and as the result, i am the one who doesnt know anything about it..any projects, any update...

stupid....

without you

First time I saw you,
I knew...
I knew I love you,
cause my heart stopped...

First time I held you,
I knew...I knew I love you,
cause my heart stopped...

Because I...Love,Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,
Love,LoveLove,Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,Love,LoveLove You....

Love can make you feel so funny,
No house,no car,not even money will,
make me feel the way...
I'm really trying to say,
I can't live another day,
Without you...(Without you)...
Without you...(Without you)...

First time I kissed you,
I knew...
I knew I had youcause your heart stopped...

First time I miss you,
I knew...
I knew...I never wanna leave you...

Love can make you feel so funny,
No house,no car,not even money will,
will make me feel the way...
I'm really trying to say,
can't live another day,Without you...

Because I...
Love,Love,Love,Love,Love,Love,
Love,LoveLove,Love,Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,LoveLove You....

Because I...Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,
Love,Love,LoveLove,Love,Love,
Love,Love,Love,Love,
LoveLove You....

Love You...Oh...
Yea..eh..Yea..eh...Yeah..Yeah..ehh....

Because
I...Love,Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,Love,LoveLove,Love,
Love,Love,Love,Love,Love,
LoveLove You....(Love You)

Because I...Love,Love,Love,Love,
Love,Love,Love,LoveLove,Love,
Love,Love,Love,Love,Love,
LoveLove You...(I love you..uh...hmm..)

still crazy..

everything in the office is wacky..i wish i could go somewhere that far from here..i m trying to let go all the feeling but then it is hard to me to think about it..ken hu is asking me to check the php coding, well i dont have mood for that, even when u become a worker u cant have your own mind as a worker...i am very upset with myself, cant let go whatever i dont even have.. well i am not really good at it..being alone is just like you dont have to think anything.. fews days already i dont read the quran, i miss quran very much..i miss my old me.. i wish that i could trun back time and get the past, the old me..

thing is not going right in the office, xila was calling me, she wants to ask me to join her to set her streamyx line, well, in the office hour like this, dont have the guts to go out..boring is an everyday topics..then i am gonna 'pay' him whatever he doesn't 'pay'..

it is 10.35 am
i am wasting my life here, got to find a new life then....